Back in the Saddle

Well, I'm back! Back in the saddle. And that actually means a couple of things. You see, a lot's happened since my last entry. Like: 

• My dad died
• I met a man
• We built a house
• I got married (My sweet hubs pictured above. We were in Alaska! Woot!)
• We moved into that house
• I got a new job
• I gained a TON of weight
• I'm on another weight loss journey

And basically in that order ;)

I enjoyed writing a blog in the past and I definitely enjoy reading blogs so it's been on my mind lately that I need to update mine. However, Blogging is HUGE now, like people's-business-huge, and I don't know if anybody reads mine anyway. (If anybody did they'd be real disappointed since no one's been home for 2 years....or is it four? It's been so long since I've posted I can't even remember!!!) LOL! In fact I saw that my blog had something like 500-ish views and they are most likely all from me! I didn't know I checked my blog so often! ;)

Anyway....I have so many thoughts that I want to organize. And sometimes a person just wants to feel like they're throwing their ideas out into the big ol' world and being heard, even if they're not. That's me right now. Plus this is a lot cuter than writing in an online journal. I think anyway. We'll see. But I'm definitely not handwriting a journal. {shudder} I'd quit that real fast.

Needless to say, I've had some pretty major life events since I wrote last. My plan is to write about these things, because, hello!, they are important. And this is my journal. Like I said at the top. You can read it if you want :)

Oooooo!

So to begin with, I'd like to discuss my fattness. That's the other meaning of being back in the saddle (the other was that I'm blogging again, if you didn't catch that before). 

:)

I really, seriously, cross-my-heart-hope-to-die, thought that when my sweet husband Nick and I got married that I would cook amazingly nutritious meals (that didn't even TASTE healthy!!!), and we would work out together and people would say "Wow, they look better than when they were dating! Marriage has been good to them!"

Well I am here to tell ya'll that MARRIAGE HAS NOT BEEN GOOD TO ME!!! 

***(In the weight department only)***

I reached my heaviest weight ever: 194 lbs!!!

Before this, my heaviest weight ever was 180-something. I kicked myself in the butt and put in some tough work at the gym and watched my calories. I lost about 20 lbs in six months. That's not super fast, but I saw lots of improvements in my body and my physical abilities that it kept me going. I need to remember that. I need to remember that I've done this before and I can do it again. Another thing I want to put in my mind is:

I love this little thing! I printed it out and I'm going to put it on my fridge.

(Finally, I've had it "pinned" for this very purpose for several months.)

I can do hard things! I've done them before and I'll do them again! My sweetie is so supportive and helps me feel good about myself now, and about the things I'm doing to become healthier. I want to get fit before I get pregnant. (Isn't that kind of silly? I want to lose a bunch of weight before I get "fat" with a baby. Lol! It's okay, it's a different kind of "fat.")

This is what doing hard things looks like:

Jillian Michaels is apparently going to "shred" me in 30 days! Do not be misled. I am very sweaty in this picture. And my whole body was quivering. JM is a butt whooper fo' sho'!!!

****Confession:*****

 I did not actually want to work out tonight, but I did it anyway. This was the fourth or fifth time I had done this particular workout and I was dreading it a little bit (as I do for most workouts :( wa-waaah), but I always feel SOOOO good afterwards. Not only physically, but mentally was well because I was a tough lady and I did a hard thing! And then it makes me look forward to doing it again! (sort of)

Healthier me: HERE I COME!!